xD

Since I got summoned by a @ , gonna infodump cuz why not lol:

Funny enough now that my mom went to China for a 1-month visit, and now it’s like 1 week in and I feel so sad about her absense from home…

The house feels so much more depressing… :/

I mean I guess this is a sort of “trial run” of what her eventual death would feel like…

Like… now I can call her… cuz now its just separated by an ocean, in this era, we have instantaneous communications…

someday it’ll be separated by a barrier between the mortal realm and… whatever world beyond… the afterlife… spirit realm… or whatever…

I guess this is what my mom meant when she said she wanted to get married give birth to children… this same emptiness that I’m feeling…

I might never find love in life :(

Funny enough my older brother is also in China right now because mom pressured him to do marriage 🤣

(My parents are arranged marriage btw)

“Please list everything bad about this world”

Bruh, there’s already enough doomerism in c/worldnews, no need for that energy in c/asklemmy

my country

OUR Country*

Bernie Intensifies

I went to apply for a US Passport…

Then I remembered that a lot of immigrants from Fujian are undocumented…

And like… I have been in highschool with these kids whose parents are from Fujian…

And I kinda just felt sad…

Cuz I’m also from China, but I got lucky and got citizenship… and they didn’t…

So I just cried… :/

Cuz I can imagine what it’s like with the uncertaintly

I mean… I kinda feel the same in some ways… I mean with current political atmosphere… who even knows anymore… I could get denaturalized and end up the same as them anyways…

the Planet*

(US is not the only country is the world where people are suffering, less US-Centralism pls)

Yes absolutely.

If I had never immigrated to the US and remained in China, I’d probably be much less accepting of multiculturalism and less comfortable being around people of different races, and also probably less okay with LGBTQ

Like… I doubt I’d be openly hateful… but in that environment, I’d never have the opportunity to be exposed to people to of different skin colors, and the culture would’ve reinforced the idea that: " LGBTQ = ‘weird’ "

I’m kinda obsessed with this concept of these two timelines.

There’s this timeline of “American Me” vs that other timeline of “Chinese Me”… of what could’ve been

Like… imagine us two meeting… lmao

Or perhaps there’s another version of me that arrived in the US even mych earlier… like at 1 year old or something (contrast with current timeline at 8 years old)…

That version of me would probably be even more “American” and I’d perhaps lose a lot of my “Chinese” part of my identity…

The trajectory of life… from just the difference of one visa stamp…

I mean this obsession of alt-timelines is causing me so much existential crisis lol…

Just use an app that force your screen to flip upside down (Android allows this)

Plot twist, now you become the worst racist in history…

🔫 cocks gun

Sorry, it’s nothing personal…

LMFAO

My mom blamed us (me and my older brother) for “sitting too close to the TV”

She kept us mostly locked indoors in an apartment (besides going to school) from the beginning of my memory up till 8 years old.

Then we moved to the US and from 8 to 12 I was in school from morning (like 7 AM maybe? forgot the exact time) till like 6PM cuz she signed me up afterschool programs cuz she wanted to use it as free babysitting essentially so she can work longer…

And we cant go outside alone without adults.

In China it was “a lot of kidnappers on the street thay will traffic you and sell your organs”

In the US it was “if you go outside without an adult, CPS will take you away and you can’t see mama again” (idk why mom spoke in 3rd person sometimes lol)

Yay! so… from birth to 12 I was indoors, either in school or at home, most of the time…

outdoor time was rare and only when parents have a day off or like the 15 minutes of recess in school…

that’s basically our outside time…

In China we had maternal grandma that sometimes took us outside…

In the US, it was just mom, dad, older brother, and me (cuz grandma can’t come yet, no visa yet)… So we had even less outside time… like parenrs had to work all the time…

But of course its always “too much screens!” to be blamed lmao

From 8 to 12 was when my nearsightedness really developed a lot.

I didn’t understand why I had nearsigntedness at the time, but now looking back and analyzing my life, now it’s so obvious why lol…

My older brother has like -9.00 or -10.00 in the nearsightedness thing. Its funny my parents called it like 900 or 1000 “degrees”… like it sounds so much scarier when they drop the decimal point and literally say: “you’re about to have ONE THOUSAND DEGREES IN NEARSIGHTEDNESS! You’re gonna GO BLIND!”

I sometimes looked myself in the mirror… like I got so used to seeing my reflection in glasses, that if I ever like go without glasses… say if I get lasik, then I’d look so weird…

I literally had this thought earlier today… like… do people who get lasik still wear fake glasses so they look good aesthetically speaking? Or as you said, “to look smart”?

In the US, you go to a post office, and you have to hand over the physical, original copy of your proof of citizenship when apply for the first time so the postal worker can attach to the packet of stuff they send to the US Department of State… and they only give it back after they finished processing your passport application…

So while waiting… (takes a few weeks to process) you have:

-No Passport -No Certificate of Citizenship/Naturalization or Birth Certificate…

Meaning no proof of Citizenship…

Which means its kinda awkward if you get approached by government agents during this time… and have no proof of your claim to be a US Citizen…

Apparantly for people with birthright citizens, they can just get a birth certificate for like $10-$30, which I didn’t know before… TIL

But since I’m foreign-born and naturalized (or technically speaking, it’s Citizenship via Derivation under the Child Citizenship Act of 2000, but its too complicated and I don’t wanna write a paragraph on that), I would need to file a N-565 to get a replacement copy of my proof of citizenship…

And it’s $500 for the filing fee…

Yea I don’t think people are gonna really wanna spend $500 just for an extra “backup copy” they statiscally don’t need, unless it actually gets lost in the system and then they’d have no choice but to pay $500…

And that also takes time to process…

(And before you ask: Yes it is night time here, but I don’t really feel like sleeping right now lol)

If this was asked in China, I bet nobody would seriously say “I wanna live in the past”

(at least not in the context of traveling back to the 1950s or something like that…)

“Why would you light your passport on fire?”

-u/ripcord@lemmy.world

idk Gen Z slang has infected my brain…

(send help… I’m Gen Z 👀)

Behold, its the other angle of the famous “AAAAAAAAAAAAH Cat”

This plot actually has continuity!

I really wanna just talk fringe topics…

Like alt timelines, butterfly effect, philosophy (especially ontology), space travel, aliens, fermi paradox, time dialation, black holes, you know, all the very werid stuff…

But unfortunately, people IRL seems to not like to talk about these things…

The other thing is just… I guess exchange life stories…

I’m not saying its an literal actual trap, its more of a colloquial/casual way of saying things that some people apparantly didn’t get… 🤷‍♂️

Its like you know people say “the cat showing the belly is a trap” thing? Even tho not every cat would scratch you.

Yeah, but they took the original copy to be mailed to the department of state, for Online Renewals it doesn’t need to leave your hands, but I’m not eligible for a renew cuz my last one was issued in 2016/2017 when I was under 16 (valid only for 5 years), and I don’t even have it anymore.

I have a printed-copy of the Certificate and digitized versions stored on my phone… but my point is, it feels “less legit” to present it compared to the physical original copy.

Your foreign birth certificate does not prove citizenship btw.

A replacement for Certificate of Naturalization/Certificate of Citizenship is $500

I have derivative citizenship…

N-565 costs $500 to file

not exactly cheap