There is a solution.
Read marx, lenin, and other socialist philosophers and politicians of your liking.
You live in a capitalist world, an inherently hostile ideology created by the few to rule the many, and you think you haven’t been fed absolutely bullshit and lied to about socialism your entire life? Everything you know is a lie. They divided and conquered us a long time ago. Their lies are just housekeeping.
You must be awake. There is either barbarism or socialism and I’ve made my choice.
I’m wasting adulthood on university degrees and doing research
Speedrun guys, research is not worth how much it destroys your life.