Removing my entire large intestine. Then everything shoots right thru.

gra ta ta!

Bestie, you deserve love, care, and support. 💜

Keep thinking and feeling and talking. You’re gonna be okay. It’s gonna be okay. 🫂

I love you. Be safe.

My mother kicked me out on my 18th birthday for not being employed. This was the second time with the first being at 14. I was an autistic, queer, CSA, COCSA, and DV survivor at 14. I’m now an unhoused trans evacuee and refugee with no understanding of what healthy family or community looks or feels like. I’m now being helped by a wonderful trans community in Seattle that I can’t fathom even though I’m being loved and supported.

The folks talking about building resilient children don’t know shit. I’m resilient as fuck because I’ve survived a hellish existence but I’m *far from healthy even though ive had 35ish years of intensive counseling for CPTSD and trauma. Caring for your kids for their whole lives should be the default because you fucking made them. If they turn out to be helpless and narcissistic assholes who do nothing to contribute that’s not because of generous support but because of nature and nurture. With the latter being due to acting as if your children are beyond reproach.

Not giving kids full support is evil and the major reason why I’m a broken whore in my 50s. Not caring for our children is why humans have created this global nightmare we are all living thru now. The culture of rugged individualism is so toxic that people scar children in a way from which they will never fully recover. It perpetuates the cycle of abuse and cultural decay. /rant

tldr: YOU’RE FINE. KEEP LOVING YOUR KID. <3

Thank you. I was worried she would stop fucking me not that I would be fired. Turned out I to be both! 🤪 She was scared to lose her job because she might go back to prison. She did call me later to get acid but for some reason that didn’t happen! Fuck me once, noice. Fuck me twice, fuck you. Fuck me three times, won’t get fooled again. 😂

Who says I didn’t? After that my GF and I took a bunch of acid with us and drove to Encinada for a week.

For telling the manager i wouldn’t cook burgers that had been in a reach-in that was broken-hot for 12 hours. Then my mother kicked me out because I didn’t have a job.

Dildos and poop knives.

I haven’t known how to respond. You’re in the middle of stressful shit too.

It’s been hell but nothing new under Sol. Trying to figure a way out of here and not give up(kms) has felt impossible. Another lonely week. It’s wild how fast I’m losing the battle for my own heart and mind. Lost in space and time.

https://youtu.be/fdI1Tb9A1Ng

if you pass thru SLC you can stay in my car if you need a place to crash. im sleeping up the street. its not safe in utah but its safer with friends if you should find yourself here. good luck.

🫂

They should know I’m gonna die in the street. They should watch.

You’re okay. You get a pass.

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A safe place to sleep.

Suicide. It would be a relief to be forgotten. There would be nothing left to stop me from powering off. 🎉☠️

i have than more we can always never listen to

It’s a tie between him repeatedly raping my sister in our shared room while I was present and when he shot my viszla in front of me. Good times, dad. Happy father’s day.

45? fuck. no wonder i look like an old leather bag

so i can exit my conveyance with style and grace and upon returning i can haul ass out of that place