I want to just delete my Discord, FB, Reddit, Second Life and other social sites so I can just be focused on myself. But I can’t because the guilt of seemingly deserting those I have left, will be hard to deal with.

  • GrayBackgroundMusic@lemmy.zip
    19·
    13 days ago

    Not be alive. I’m passively suicidal. I don’t have a plan. I’m not going to do anything. I very much know how screwed everyone would be if I wasn’t here. I make a lot of people’s lives very much better by my actions. I also know that I would miss out on a lot of fantastic experiences (I want to pet fluffy cows so much).

    However, my life isn’t worth it for myself. I’m middle aged. On the whole, it’s been more negative than positive. Don’t get me wrong, there have been some amazing highlights. I have wonderful kids and some amazing memories with my spouse and moments in my childhood, but it’s all outweighed by the bad. The bad is cumulatively worse than the good, it’s net negative.

    • Zarobi@aussie.zoneEnglish
      2·
      12 days ago

      You deserve to be happy and healthy too. Don’t martyr yourself; not even for family.

      I did the same thing. Bound by obligation, burning the candle at both ends for my family, until the flame flickered, and everything fell apart anyway. You need to find a sustainable life, both mentally and physically, that brings you satisfaction; not just resentment and exhaustion.

      Feel free to DM me.

      • BougieBirdie@piefed.blahaj.zoneEnglish
        132·
        13 days ago

        Jesus man, first of all, you might be an asshole

        You waffle immediately from shaming someone for being mentally ill into advocating that they be violent.

        We’d obviously all prefer that people aren’t suicidal, and yeah we want to help them. I know I want to live in a world where nobody feels they need to take their own life.

        I don’t think suicide is automatically selfish though, you don’t know anything about this person’s life. Demanding that somebody continue an existence that they find miserable in order for you to not have your feelings hurt is pretty damn selfish though. Do you think that making somebody feel bad will somehow make them feel less bad?