It’s not about learning lessons. There’s no grand narrative to life other than what we come up with.

From your posts, it’s become clear that I can’t convince you to not hate yourself. Only you can decide to self love, not anyone else. You absolutely will not get better until you recognize how loveable you are.

There wouldn’t be a lesson for anyone in your death, just tragedy and pain. We’ll always be here for you, but that will not matter unless you’re there for yourself.

Disney may be a soulless company, but they hire a ton of queer people because we’re just good at filmmaking!

Not even Eepy?

I think ContraPoints has a video on this. From what I remember, we struggle to handle our feelings of Envy. We’re socialized to see it as a bad thing, a moral failing, so we refuse to even label it as such.

In truth, envy is a natural human emotion that we should make space for so we can process it. It’s not good to give in to your envy, but it’s also not good to deny that it’s a part of you.

Don’t give up. Be happy to spite them. Nothing makes them more upset than seeing our smiles.