has to be old bud spencer and terrence hill movies, pretty popular in germany. I know there is a couple of them, but they are all pretty much the same anyway. ;-)

and most incidents end with only one or a few shots fired.

I assure you one thing: If it happened to you and you survived, you will not wish this on your worst enemy.

i have a hard time explaining this to people, they simply don’t get it-.

thats a real problem, took me ages to figure out.

After 2 Years of ritalin, those kind of regrets and feelings subside, and I had them all my life.

I guess my perception of self worth changed.

I tried to be successfull, because i didnt know what it felt like to feel good about myself.

It’s a thing like learning the guitar, being really giid at it, but you don’t have to show it to your frineds, you just do it for yourself.

So, that with the guitar happened to me.

The first thing is to get rid of depression. In my case, i tried lots of things. lots and lots.

I always hoped:

“I do the thing X, AND THEN I’LL BE SUCCESSFULL, from then on, i will function like other people!”

But that was never ever the case.

Only thing that helped was ritalin, and learning to let it all go, slowly, you will fuind things you are good at.

In my case, I started with my adhd diagnosis. then i got good at selling car parts and playing the guitar. dropped the car parts thing though, i am outstandingly good at it, but still not able to deal with people.

oh, i guess i was suicidal for twenty years… on and off.

No. people ask for help, I tell them what i think.

I didn’t give you medical advice. What I said about salt is Nutrition and common sense.

You don’t need to be a doctor to learn whats up with your body, how it works, what it needs, what stims do to it. doctors didnt tell you about salt, how stims speed up metabolic basal rate, why your hearth acts the way it does.

many peopoe struggle with zoloft, experst seem divided. antidepressants don’t help Depresseion any way, long term. anxiety, maybe. yes, thats been proven.

wellbutrin: you describe an overdose.

sounds like you depleted your storage of micronutrients.

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one reason could be you were lacking salt. sounds stuüpid, but is very easy to test. just eat salt.

honestly, that sounds like overdose and mineral / vitamin deficency, some people will even lose hair because they just dont eat right.

you had constant low blood glucose levels.

1. medication interaction could be a reason
2. overdose
3. you dont eat right (protein, fat, vegtables)
4. you are insuline resistent
5. in my case, i am grain allergic without knowing it, stopped etaing grains, that helped
6. you could be out of salt and different minerals

so. you take uppers and downers at the same time. you take blood pressure altering meds. you take ssri while having adhd, AND stimulants on top.

a couple of things:

stimulants WILL speed up your metabolic rate. thats why they give you brain energy, and a bit of body energy. Its what you want. but the blood pressure thing interferes big time, as does the ssri. the ssri tries to slow your metabolic rate down, thats why it interferes with blood sugar levels, for example.

the salt thing is easy, just eat or drink salt. overdose is also easy, i just took half. eating is also easy, just eat right.

so essentially, what you are trying to do is not possible. it will get worse and worse and worse.

MY problem for anxeity was grain allergy.

you have a very high chance that your anxiety has a reason.

i did get of my antidepressants, and went to baseline, so i could get a feeling how stims work in combination with other substances, this went on for almost 2 years till i figured it all out.

(talk that through with your help provider… thats what i did. )

I garantuee you that what you do will not work at all.

try the salt and eat more good stuff, that cant harm you. but if this doesnt work, you have to reconsider. try taking less.

signs of food allergy:

bloating, stomach cramps. you need 60 sheets of toilet paper, stomach ache, migraines, heart arythmia, anxiety, drepression, skin problems, hair looks dirty, pimples, black spot under eyes, sore throat, dry thorat, white trush on tongue, panic attacs, paranoia thoughts, congested nose, vitamin deficency

yea, ssri does kinda complement adhd meds, because of serotonin dopamin relase and stuff.

but that still leaves the fact that one does speed up your system, the other slows it down.

keep in mind that salt and minerals could be also the culprit. salt is insanely important for proper heart function. and your body cant really deal with a sped up metabolism, sometimes, you are right on the edge, and the stims push you over.

oh, the guanfancine lowers your blood pressure. so, on stims, your heart needs to beat faster, because your body wants to have higher blood pressure.

normally, your heart would just beat STRONGER, you see? but it isnt allowed to beat with more force, so it has to beat faster.

you have an energy usage increase of 20-30 %. thats what stims do.

keep in mind that i am just an autistic dude with adhd that had problems with insuline resistance and stimulants, so i read a lot of stuff.

i just want to give you ideas, thats all. it doesnt mean that I know whats right or wrong.

ok, take care, you will figure it out.

I went trough the old pictures of my granddad, turns out he was the head of a european accident commission.

i saw him standing in a cooling facility full of human body bags, two times. one was a flight accident, one was a whole camping site that burned down in spain or portugal.

was like in the eighties and seventies. he had also pictures of him standing next to military jets and foreign politicians and stuff.

I crashed in a car with my wheelloader because i was staring after an afftractive women that went by on a bike.

you know, like in a comedy movie. was not a hard crash though, luckily.

europe has more complicated laws about privacy and data mining

i believe thats a given…

thanks!

krasse sache

i watched some documatnary about hackers, and usually, they catch them because they talk way to mouch about themselves.

its way more likely that your mom searched for cancer related information on google. and you are connected to your mom, so you get ads as well.