ericatty

This is my answer. When things seem to be going well, something bad is about to happen

I use it now quite a bit. And I’ve been subscribing more. Before I fell down the jjk rabbit hole, I hadn’t realized how mamy creators were being suggested that I’d never hit follow on, but would watch often.

I had to clear my history because all I was getting was jujutsu kaisen and none of my subscription stuff was coming through.

I feel this way about music too. Not just pirated tunes, but copyright takedowns on shorts and in yt vids

Finding new artists as a fan is hard enough. If someone has reposted your music video as their own, sure I get it.

But a minute clip or less? Fans or haters talking about it? Let that thing fly free baby! I’ve found so much new music that was background music. I use the family Spotify account or buy merch more than I buy music these days to support.

I’ve bought so many books from authors that became my favs after they did a free epub once that got my attention.

There’s always the “do this thing free for the exposure” problem - but people who say that are usually trying to exploit artists for their own gain. Fans are different, they are grass roots and not trying to exploit, but trying to recruit.

Afraid of being asked this irl and dropping tmi. But since this is the Internet…

I’m 52 and going through what feels like a 2nd fucking puberty. I’m feeling creative again, but this time with panic attacks, and enough experience to own the Art of Procrastination to a level that matches Gojo’s Limitless. I’m dodging that shit like it’s effortless until the last possible moment and then crush it. So far.

I have so, so much to worry about, I’ve shorted out. My brain is simply in denial so I will probably have a sleep paralysis panic attack again soon.

At least there’s some good stuff too and I’m clinging to that. And my hyperfocusing/fixation on stuff has come in handy, even when using to avoid other things.