A while ago, I had A LOT of free time to shitpost on social media, and I was beginning to miss it.

I don’t have as much time anymore. 😭

I don’t get how people can comment way too much. I barely comment or post anything not just on Lemmy but on every platform.

I don’t think I comment way too much, but probably sometimes it’s too much. Those times it’s because online existence is a form of escapism, and sometimes that’s useful escapism that helps me to survive, and sometimes it’s maladaptive escapism. Often it’s both.

I’m unemployed, I don’t have friends, girlfriend or any resemblance of social life.

Recovering from cancer, no job, no friends, too much time.

My job mostly entails me working in a ticketing system all day. When I’m all caught up and there’s no backlog of tickets, I usually kill time hanging out here while I wait for more to come in.

I’ve been on summer break since May. Started back Monday and I’m very very angry with our new ‘leadership’ team, so I spend every possible minute browsing my phone. My other activity is deciding on the words I’ll say and what song will play as i drop a match behind me on my way out.

Can’t find work

I have a job where I don’t do anything ninety-seven percent of the time but I need to be ready for the three percent when shit hits the wall.

Code’s compiling, ADD

What else am I supposed to do at work?

I have a bad habit of leaving comments when I want to leave none ever. So comments >0 is too many by my own reckoning. I have the free time because depression. I make these comments because I’ve lost my self control in that respect

Thoracic spinal damage is super rare. The thoracic region is the area where your ribs connect. It isn’t like the lumbar spine you likely associate with back problems. It usually requires external sources of traumatic injury to cause problems. Unlike typical back problems, thoracic damage can greatly impact posture; not just in the sense of ‘hold your shoulders back and don’t slouch’ bad posture. This is more like, what you associate with bad posture is somewhat related to fatigue, but you’re likely unaware of how much continuous strength you actually have that underpins your ability to remain upright. These muscles are still engaged even when you are reclining above around a 45° angle, just to a lesser extent, and certainly in use while sitting upright or standing. When the thoracic spinal region is chronically damaged, holding posture above 45° can become like lifting a 1 kg dumbbell in your outstretched arm at shoulder height. I can hold posture and situp or stand, but it hurts from the moment I start. By 30 minutes it is painful enough for me to lose the focus to read and comprehend well. By 1 hour in, I’m unable to think clearly over the background noise of the pain. Taking pain meds and muscle relaxers doesn’t change anything about my condition. It just makes me care less or less self aware. I am here most often because there is a position I can sit in that allows me to fully relax my back while holding a phone. I spend my up time doing other things, I can sit with my computer in bed longer or hold up a novel size book okay. This is a profoundly lonely existence to deal with long term. I’m often hurting too much to really talk anyways. I need the filter of text to piece my thoughts together and feel like I am myself. In a lot of ways I let this place fill a fundamental social need. I don’t expect people to understand. I simply have no access to escape this situation and be myself.

I work from my phone so it’s easy to check Lemmy continuously.