🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️ trans, pan and poly
Thank you!
You’re going to get there faster than you think! Don’t rush your coming outs if you don’t feel ready yet, but also don’t wait for the perfect moment (it doesn’t exist). Stay safe and also give yourself enough time to process things in between!
Had a cute date and made out with another girl for the first time since transitioning :3
My egg cracked in my late 20s. I’m 31 now and ~2 years on HRT. Its been only a few months since my last coming out and since I stopped boymoding entirely. I have changed at least as much as a person in these last few months as in the years between my egg crack and then. Its amazing how you can actually just do stuff and have fun and meet new people and be happy when you’re not depressed anymore and feel good about yourself and learn to have confidence and realize that you actually do have free will and can just do stuff if you want to.
It really does get better and fighting through the hard times is so absolutely worth it!
I had my first ever lesbian date today and it was really nice :)
Electrolysis works by literally inserting a needle where you want to destroy the hair follicles. So you would only use it on the remaining hair, yes. It also hurts like hell compared to laser. and since they’re zapping each hair individually it also takes a lot longer. Do laser first, if some hairs remain go for electrolysis.
I guess. I’ve had a hp convertible previously and it also got the spicy pillow. Just my luck I guess. The difference was, that the hp one had shifty screws and lots of glue and the case was permanently deformed by the expanding battery. In comparison the experience with my framweork was just so much better
I don’t know if It generally is, I’ve already had my framework for some years, so the warranty was already expired.
I have a framework 13. Last week I noticed my battery had gone spicy pillow. Screwed it open, removed the battery and ordered a new one. A few days later I got the new battery, put it in and screwed everything back together. Took me less than 30 minutes in total, got original parts and not some sketchy Amazon crap, was less complicated than repairing my desktop PC. This is how you do repairable tech.
I had the same thoughts after the first wave of euphoria post-egg-crack was over. They stayed with me for a very long time, I think even now they occasionally pop up. When I started HRT I even told myself I would constantly reexamine how I felt with the effects. But after a few weeks on hrt I just knew. For the first time I felt some sort of connection to my own body and from then on it only got better and the “goblins” got quieter and quieter.
I think it’s healthy to keep questioning to some degree, but the best way to deal with this is probably to just keep exploring. You can always stop if it doesn’t feel right anymore. And sometimes it just takes some time to get used to things, no need to panic if something feels weird at first.
Also, what I needed to realize was, that gender and gender presentation are a spectrum: You don’t have to be hyper feminine or gender conforming to be Trans. You’re allowed to have “masc” hobbies and interests, you’re allowed to dress masc or femme or neutral or both, you don’t have to like makeup. Only you decide and define what your gender is. For me it was also helpful to explore non-binary gender identities. In the end I still identified as a woman, but I found it helpful to free myself from expectations that come with that label for a while. Finding out what your gender is not, can help narrowing down what it actually is. And your decision doesn’t have to be final.
So I guess what I want to say is: it’s totally normal to have these thoughts, if you keep questioning yourself and do what feels right you will end up with the right result for you. But don’t let the doubts drive you crazy.
Thinking about it I realized that as far as I can remember I always felt jealous in that regard and I often simply imagined I already had a vagina. It certainly wasn’t as clear a want as it was for you and I didn’t have horrible dysphoria, but still. Maybe it just was never in reach and I still need to process that it is now.
Sorry that your genital dysphoria is so bad, wish you all the best
Thanks, I had already thought about that, but I think that’s probably not it either.
Wish you all the best for your surgery
Definitely won’t get surgery unless I’m sure. Its just that I thought I wanted it for quite some time now and now I’m not sure anymore. But I still have the dysphoria and for the first time since starting my transition I feel like I don’t now what the right next step is for me.
Androcur is really easy to cut with a pill cutter, that way you can take a quarter pill every two days instead of the entire pill once a week. When my doctor prescribed me androcur they told me to take it like this
I’ve had nose surgery and spent most of my week recovering at my parents house. I’m very thankful that I could just go there without having to fear being constantly misgendered or dead named or anything and instead just being cared for. The hospital and my doctor had also quickly adapted to my recent legal name change and everything went smooth there to.
The last confirmations from various places regarding my name change keep trickling in which is nice.
My nose still hurts but overall I’m doing pretty well.
It was my first full week of living as myself full time and it’s starting to feel normal now. No more being stressed about how I want to present when I go outside, just being me. So pretty great here :)
Thats the dysphoria talking. A) you already look pretty Passing B) in your other post you said you’ve only been HRT for 5,5 months? Give it time. I promise you it will be worth it.
I had the same type of mid-HRT dysphoria were I thought I would never pass. And just a few months later I couldn’t boymode anymore since I was already passing too well. It will happen for your too. Im 31 btw. Dont know how old you are but you look younger than that. “Too late” is a dirty lie the dysphoria tells you. Dont believe it.