Hi, I’m almost 2 years on hrt now and while I never had much bottom dysphoria that started to change once the HRT changes reduced much of my other body dysphoria. For a while I was sure I wanted bottom surgery. I don’t like my current “configuration”, I don’t like tucking and that limits my fashion choices quite a bit. I feel conscious about it a lot of times when going outside. I also can’t even think about being intimate with someone like this. And I just don’t like having this thing on me. Plus I’ve heard a lot about how you get some more hrt changes post surgery since you don’t have any t left. But once I started thinking more about the surgery and researching a bit I wasn’t sure if that was the right thing for me either. It’s probably at least partially because the actual surgery and the healing process are really scary. But the idea of having a vagina also feels somehow weird. I’m not sure why. I know there are some types of surgeries that don’t create “depth” but I don’t quite think that’s the right thing for me either. Tho while my libido was down before I started prog I sometimes thought that I wish I was just flat down there.
I’m absolutely lost about what to do.
Did you have similar thoughts? How did you come to a decision? Any helpful thoughts on this are much appreciated
I knew I wanted a pussy since age 9, even before i knew the word “trans”, sooooo
Yeah when I discovered peritoneal pull through was an option so the neovagina would be moist and need less dilation I was like 100% sure I wanted that
Also I had horrible genital dysphoria pre hrt that only got worse on hrt, and it often ruins sex for me and stuff.
Thinking about it I realized that as far as I can remember I always felt jealous in that regard and I often simply imagined I already had a vagina. It certainly wasn’t as clear a want as it was for you and I didn’t have horrible dysphoria, but still. Maybe it just was never in reach and I still need to process that it is now.
Sorry that your genital dysphoria is so bad, wish you all the best