Hi, I’m almost 2 years on hrt now and while I never had much bottom dysphoria that started to change once the HRT changes reduced much of my other body dysphoria. For a while I was sure I wanted bottom surgery. I don’t like my current “configuration”, I don’t like tucking and that limits my fashion choices quite a bit. I feel conscious about it a lot of times when going outside. I also can’t even think about being intimate with someone like this. And I just don’t like having this thing on me. Plus I’ve heard a lot about how you get some more hrt changes post surgery since you don’t have any t left. But once I started thinking more about the surgery and researching a bit I wasn’t sure if that was the right thing for me either. It’s probably at least partially because the actual surgery and the healing process are really scary. But the idea of having a vagina also feels somehow weird. I’m not sure why. I know there are some types of surgeries that don’t create “depth” but I don’t quite think that’s the right thing for me either. Tho while my libido was down before I started prog I sometimes thought that I wish I was just flat down there.
I’m absolutely lost about what to do.
Did you have similar thoughts? How did you come to a decision? Any helpful thoughts on this are much appreciated
For me bottom dysphoria also greatly increased after about a year on HRT, I guess because other stuff was managed more so the dysphoria moved there. I always hated my penis even before transition but only then understood why and what to do about it. I don’t really care about sex but just wearing what I want and not feeling my penis when laying down are 10/10 benefits I love from SRS. In my country you have to talk to a therapist in order to get SRS so I found a good one and actually talked about her about my (few) concerns like healing and cleared up some doubts. But I was pretty set on it and looking back recovery was really ok for me. 2-3 weeks of struggle aren’t a lot for a lifetime of happiness. And it was really only the first week that was REALLY bad. After that, it got better and I managed ok. I’m now 6 months post-op and very happy with my decision. I don’t really think about my genitals anymore which is wonderful. Check my post history for some more detail, I made some posts here throughout my journey.