this is gonna be a short one, trust me! >o< (im trustworthy, see my pfp waving to you… yes its waving!!!)
there is no content warning, this is all child-friendly content.

i - wow. i was playing a game to get my mind off of things. (playing osu… a game which needs quite the amount of realtime attention)

but then i thought of my crush a smol bit. not much, nothing spicy, nothing special, literally just us and another friend sitting and having tea.

but then!!! evil and selfish and uncontrollable as my thoughts are - i imagined them asking me something!!! >o< aaaa ohgosh.

wasnt even anything big, wasnt even like - exciting or anything. but!

my - (this sounds weird) my tummy and pelvis started like - bubbling and buzzing like crazy. like crazy. like - crazy.

its like roller coaster riding but only the part where u go straight down but without the gut-wrenching feeling and more positive and this might still be an understatement honestly.

i lost the level because i was pulling my hands off of the keyboard as i was - involuntarily squirming back and forth on the chair, moving away from the desk… this really does sound weird.

like - i had to actively distract myself to get it to stop. it wasnt a horny thing, it was very different.

(for anyone caring: am on hrt for 2 months)

wowie zowie. anyway, am i allowed to post stuff like this here, or is this maybe not the right place?

also, i hope u have a lovely day <3

  • maria [she/her]@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOP
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    4 days ago

    aaaa this sounds weird but i got it just from reading ur comment again---- umm i dont think u need to see a doctor, since this appears to just be a thing -
    besides of course if u wanna get rid of those mental connections, in which case… im not stoppting u!!! <3