Basically I’m like 99% sure I’m trans. If I could just magically physically be a woman right now, I would immediately, and probably never present male again.
However, I look male, I have a beard, broad shoulders, a penis, etc, and I don’t really mind either. Transitioning would be annoying and since I lived so long as a man, I’ll never pass, and I don’t like a “mixed look” at all. And yeah, I really don’t mind my body, I find men attractive, I find women attractive, I find myself attractive. I’m fine with what biology decided I should look like.
Does anyone share this kind of view on themselves? I only have tangential contact with any trans communities, and I never really see this sentiment represented.
I’ve been trying to express that I don’t have any painful feelings about it.
I’m pretty sure I could pass perfectly fine eventually, but it’d definitely be with a lot of effort and money that I don’t have. That’s why I said the thing about “if I could just magically be a woman, I would”.