I haven’t posted anything in a while, but a lot has happened.
- I lost my job due to a mass layoff, the timing sucked so much, but I have some runway from the severance package, so it’s not all bad.
- I got therapy after all, and it helps a bit… but I also think I need a different therapist.
- I came out to my close friend groups, and they have been very supportive.
- Voice training has been going well, I’ve made some crazy progress in only 2 months, and I have a pretty dark/raspy voice.
- Getting called she/her and my girl name (that I chose), still feels weird, giving me doubts about it all.
- Still super excited for HRT tomorrow, so… lol at the doubts.
Anyways thanks for reading all this.
Thanks I appreciate this community so much <3, and I have also misgendered myself recently, with habitual speech patterns too haha. The doubts come and go still, but it is pretty mild now. It mostly just depends on my mood.
For voice training, since I’m a research-aholic and self-motivated, I’ve found plenty of online guides for getting the fundamentals right, raising larynx, resonance, mouth/tongue position, etc.
Here’s some of the guides I’ve followed to various degrees. Warning, some are very theory heavy, but afaict it’s all pretty similar. The main thing is to get into a good daily routine with basic exercises and work your way up.
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLkZ-3sMGEmDwlD5zNgEtWJwz8WDt6H8OZ
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1j_-8dndFzKTX0xBSF15ZEJWdw958ryh0IPKq1sz8p04
https://old.reddit.com/r/transvoice/comments/d3clhe/ls_voice_training_guide_level_1_for_mtf/
Thank you for sharing the links, I’ll save your post for if I ever feel like I’m capable of a daily routine :)