I haven’t posted anything in a while, but a lot has happened.

  • I lost my job due to a mass layoff, the timing sucked so much, but I have some runway from the severance package, so it’s not all bad.
  • I got therapy after all, and it helps a bit… but I also think I need a different therapist.
  • I came out to my close friend groups, and they have been very supportive.
  • Voice training has been going well, I’ve made some crazy progress in only 2 months, and I have a pretty dark/raspy voice.
  • Getting called she/her and my girl name (that I chose), still feels weird, giving me doubts about it all.
  • Still super excited for HRT tomorrow, so… lol at the doubts.

Anyways thanks for reading all this.

  • Domi@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
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    12 days ago

    Are you doing voice training with a teacher? I want to but I’m not getting much from free YouTube stuff and I’m broke so I’ll have to wait.

    It’s ok to take a little time to get used to your new name and pronouns. I felt a bit weird hearing people use she/her for me at first because I hadn’t changed my presentation much and it felt a bit like they were just humouring me. I would also internally misgender myself quite often for the first few months. You have to give yourself time to adjust.

    I was riddled with doubts before I started hrt. I’m now about 3 weeks into it and I can’t imagine ever going back. I can feel things. I am capable of self love. I want to be alive now.

    Give yourself some time. You’re going to be okay. We’re here to vent to and chat with. Sending love dear omelet.